Building Confidence
As an undergraduate, Dr. Erika Camacho had a funny feeling she
didn’t quite belong. “Lots of people thought I was there to fill a
quota,” she recalls. But she had sacrificed to get there and refused to
give up: “And that’s what you keep telling yourself, ‘Once I get my PhD,
it will stop.’” Well, not exactly.
Dr. Scottie Henderson out in the fieldDr.
Scottie Henderson (Diné) sat in chemistry class and listened to
classmates talk about their high-achieving parents who were professors.
She felt small, like she didn’t belong: “People talk about you, ‘You
must have gotten in through the back door.’ I began to think, ‘They’re
right, I don’t belong here.’”
Both women experienced what
clinical psychologists Pauline Clance and Suzanne Imes called the
“Impostor Phenomenon” in1978. Now commonly known as the Imposter
Syndrome, the term applied to high-performing but inwardly anxious women
who don’t experience an internal sense of success.
For Camacho
and Henderson, being women of color added to feelings of not quite
belonging—so did entering predominantly male fields. Luckily, both women
found the inner strength to rise above feeling inadequate, and they
stuck with school. The Imposter Syndrome is known to affect men, as
well.
A Magic Formula for Building Confidence?
What is the magic formula to boost a person’s confidence level? For
César Rios, the future was a confusing mixed message—his mother
encouraged him to get an education and his hardworking father told him
to get a job! He entered community college with no good ideas. “I was
just running around like a headless chicken,” he admits.
Then
there’s Ian Colon-Pagan, who at age 11 declared his homosexuality to his
family, refusing to live a closeted life. His family embraced him, his
sexuality, and his scientific aspirations. He credits their support with
helping him to pursue his dream of becoming a meteorologist, to
persevere even when 10 of the 11 graduate schools he applied to rejected
him.
The Power of a Good Mentor
There is no one magic formula for building confidence, but there are
studies and real-life examples of what students can do to succeed.
Primarily they need to know they’re not alone in feelings they have of
not belonging, of feeling isolated—or like they alone have a difficult
time adjusting to college.
Camacho, now assistant professor of
mathematics, Arizona State University, Tempe, had a head start in the
mentoring area. Her high school teacher was Jaime Escalante, made famous
in the movie Stand and Deliver. “What Escalante did was help us believe
in ourselves,” she recalls. “If you don’t believe in yourself, you’re
not going to make much of a difference.”
She needed to believe
that, especially since she was entering a field dominated by white
males. “Even students, when they see you in front of the board, have a
hard time seeing you as a professor. Frankly, they see you as a maid!”
she says, still in shock from her experience at another university—the
racist remarks from her students there. Today in her classroom at ASU,
she doesn’t face that same hostility. Striding into a room, she greets
students, confidently reminding them, “Math is sexy!”
Her own
experience sometimes lets her spot students who suffer from some form of
the Imposter Syndrome. “They can be very shy in class,” she says. “When
you ask a question they may hesitate—but when you push them, they’ll
give you the answer.”
Camacho mentions a Latina she had in class
recently. The student, a freshman, was enrolled in an honors class
usually reserved for juniors and seniors. When she said to her that she
must be very smart, Camacho recalls that the student said, “‘No, I don’t
think so.’” Camacho remarks that it’s like pulling teeth to get these
students to acknowledge their intelligence. “But other professors won’t
do that, and they’ll assume the worst, ‘She doesn’t care or she’s
lazy!’”
Rios, now attending Evergreen Valley College in San
Jose, California, laughs as he looks back at his first semesters at
community college. “It’s quite funny, at De Anza I’d sit in the back,
and quietly turn in my homework.” When Rios transferred to Evergreen he
tried to do the same, go to lectures and sit, hiding in the back; “But
when I met Mr. (Alfred) Gonzales, I think his energy transferred to
me—he’s pretty happy and outgoing. Now I’m the one who asks questions
and jokes with the teachers.”
Communities Are Essential
Cesar Rios speaks at a chapter eventA professor helped Rios build his confidence, but for many students that isn’t the case.
In
the late ’70s, Dr. Uri Treisman, who taught at the University of
California, Berkeley, wondered why so many freshmen minority students
did so poorly in his calculus class. His 18-month ethnographic study
found that social and intellectual isolation led to students feeling
demoralized, disoriented, and in many cases, they even dropped out of
school. He came to believe that students needed a viable, robust
multiethnic community with a shared interest in mathematics.
Organizations
like SACNAS offer students and professionals a crucial place to build
community, form networks, and socialize in a place that links race,
ethnicity, and shared interests in the STEM fields.
After years
of feeling isolated, Camacho met Professor Carlos Castillo-Chavez who
introduced her to SACNAS in her senior year of college. Everything
“changed dramatically”—suddenly, she says, she had a support group of
her peers and professionals willing to help her. “It gives you a sense
of belonging in the academic world,” and she adds, “I wouldn’t be here
if it wasn’t for those people who gave to me.”
Colon-Pagan is
currently a graduate student at Georgia Institute of Technology in
Atlanta. He started college in his native Puerto Rico, and even there he
felt alienated due to his choice of study: atmospheric science. He
transferred to North Carolina Agriculture and Technical State
University, a predominantly black university, for his master’s. “Being
the only Latino and openly gay student in his department at
NCA&TSU,” he says, he felt more isolated and longed to speak
Spanish.
SACNAS gave Colon-Pagan a sense of belonging.
He’s also involved with an even more specialized group, NOGLSTP, the
National Organization of Gay and Lesbian Scientists and Technical
Professionals, Inc. “I wanted to be out but not the average gay,” he
declares. “Most people think we are only dancers or hairstylists, but I
show them that we are more than that…we are represented in so many
fields.”
Finding Your Place
So whether you’re gay, Latino, Native American, a woman, or from
another country—how do you figure out how to fit into the college scene?
Stanford psychologists Drs. Greg Walton and Geoffrey Cohen
designed a 60-minute exercise that influenced the performance of
minority students and increased their GPA from their freshman to their
senior years. The students in the treatment group read surveys and
essays from upperclassmen representing various races and ethnicities.
The essays talked about the difficult adjustments they had fitting in
when they first started college.
Some of those hardships included
being intimidated by professors, snubbed by classmates, or ignored when
they asked for help. Yet they persevered and overcame those initial
difficulties and were successful in college. The idea was: that
transition to college can be tough for anyone, regardless of who you are
or where you come from.
Dr. Henderson had to learn that the hard
way. Today she’s a biology instructor at Cerritos College in Norwalk,
California, but when she transferred from a community college to the
University of California, Santa Cruz, she was pretty lost. The layout of
the organic chemistry lab was particularly new territory. Frustrated,
she finally went to the teaching assistant…and started crying. “I felt
so lost,” she recalls, that she asked for help. But first she had to
face a stereotype: the TA asked, “Do you speak English? Am I speaking
too fast for you?”
“Uh, I’ve been speaking English to you
this whole time,” thought Henderson, “Yeah, English is my first
language.” After that fumble in communication, the TA suggested meeting
and going through a dry run with her to show her where things were kept
in the lab. It worked. “It just gave me a little more confidence.”
But
Henderson’s transition to her new college wasn’t yet complete. She was
in what students call a “weeder class,” one that’s typically very
difficult and where few pass. When the first exam results came back she
was devastated. “I had failed,” she recalls, “the lowest grade I ever
had.” Henderson was depressed and didn’t want to talk to anyone about
it. As rotten luck would have it, she found herself in the lab after
class with another student, a white female, who wanted to know how she
did on the exam. “My face got hot. I didn’t want to tell her.” Finally
Henderson relented and said she had failed. Her excited classmate gave
her the good news saying, “The grades are curved! You got an A!” “What?”
chuckles Henderson now at the memory—curving was a new concept to her.
“You mean I actually did better than most of my classmates?” she recalls
thinking. So much for coming in the back door. For the record,
Henderson earned an A in that class.
The Confidence to Face Cultural Challenges
Many students of color face cultural challenges when it comes to
their educational pursuits. For Rios, it was choosing between a college
education or working his way up the corporate ladder at a juice store.
“I got hired and promoted quickly, and was on track to being a manager,”
he says. Yet he questioned if that was what he wanted to do for the
rest of his life.
His mother was saying go to college, but his
father was following in the footsteps of his own father, Rios’
grandfather, who worked till he was in his mid-80s. “My dad learned by
that example. My grandfather is an inspiration. He was never the type to
sit down,” says Rios. “That’s how my father is—you always have to keep
busy!” Consequently, Rios couldn’t study at home because, he says, all
his father saw was that he was sitting down reading a book. It didn’t
look good; it looked like he was being lazy. So Rios found other places
to study.
Later he met his mentor, Alfred Gonzales, who
introduced him to SACNAS. Today when he sees a fellow Latino student he
mentions SACNAS. “Maybe they aren’t quite sure, like I was,” he says,
happy to share some inspiration with others.
Peer-to-Peer Support
Ian Colon-Pagan on graduation dayColon-Pagan
is also eager to encourage students when he goes home to Puerto Rico.
“At the university I talked to some of the students about career
choices. They were struggling with, ‘What am I going to do?’ I said,
‘I’m just an average student. I’m not a 4.0, but I know what I can
give,’” he shares with them. “I like research, leadership, getting
everyone involved. I’m really good at networking.” From being rejected
by 10 of the 11 schools he applied to for grad school, he was accepted
by all three schools he applied to for his PhD.
For Colon-Pagan,
the worst consequence would have been not finishing his education and
allowing others to take away his dream. Colon-Pagan dreams of working at
NOAA or the National Weather Service. When he was four-years-old,
Hurricane Hugo devastated his homeland. “I’m passionate about it,” he
says of learning all he can about how a hurricane forms. “How it can
affect people who are not prepared, how strong winds affect
communities.”
Inspiring by Example
Camacho relishes teaching now, and stays involved in SACNAS because
it affected her so powerfully. “I didn’t have to stop being Latina to be
a scientist, to be a mathematician!” she enthuses. “You see adults who
are professionals and who look like you. I don’t think others realize
how much they can inspire a student just by being there!”
Henderson
also enjoys teaching, and introduces her students to biology and to
herself. “I always tell them that my name is Scottie because my dad was a
Star Trek fan!” she chuckles.” In addition to questions about her name,
she’s gotten used to fielding questions about her ethnicity. Students
say, “You look Asian, but you’re not Asian.” No, she isn’t. Her mother
is Mexican American and her father is Navajo Indian from the Southwest.
Working at a minority-serving institution, Henderson says she believes
her students see her as one of them, nonwhite, and therefore feel
comfortable talking to her about their lives and aspirations. They
understand she too transferred from a junior college to a university and
did research as an undergraduate.
Rios thinks he would like to
teach. His major is physics, and he tutors eighth graders. “Is it hard?”
his students ask him. “Yes, it is,” he replies honestly, “but also
really, really fun.” Rios adds, “Anything that’s worth it is hard.” The
eighth graders ask why he chose to major in science and math complaining
how boring it is. “I don’t blame them…you need to engage them. If you
don’t, they’re going to lose interest really, really fast.”
He’s
helping them get off on the right foot. An interest in the STEM fields
should be nurtured—and that starts with building the young person’s
confidence.
Author
Patty Talahongva (Hopi) is a freelance journalist based in Arizona. She's a past president of the Native American Journalists Association and is the current vice president of the Hopi Education Endowment Fund. She can be reached at witespider@aol.com.
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