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Oppressed by Too Much Talk of
Oppression
By Robbieana Leung
Furrowing
my eyebrows tightly together, I squinted through the window of the
Yangon City
Orientation bus. I was trying to find a sign of citizen oppression from
the tyrannical
military regime that I had heard so much about. All the documentaries
and
articles provided by Semester at Sea reflected a Burma
that rotated around the extreme
oppression that violates human rights and democracy. Carefully looking
between
the rows of logs laid along the road for possible hidden signs, all I
could jot
in my notes was “piles of logs, placed in neat rows by tractors.
Fuchsia lilies
in pond by rail road tracks.” As my bus passed thatched huts in the
midst of
green bushes and muddy grounds, I found myself wondering, are
rural inhabitants slavery targets of the regime, as a documentary
had said? But evidence was nil. Even when we reached the city,
there was
still no sign of oppression, oppression, oppression…
That was
all I heard. That was all they talked about in my Semester at Sea
classes - the
suppressive government and suppressed peoples. Despite being told that
much of
the suppression is covert, I expected some kind of subtle but
noticeable sign that
showed dissatisfaction of the government. I was too intimidated to ask
locals
how they felt about the regime, having been cautioned that the
consequences
for those I questioned would be interrogation and possibly a jail
sentence. Monique Skidmore’s
article, “Darker than midnight: Fear, Vulnerability, and terror making
in urban
Burma,” effectively silenced me, by convincing me that it was unethical
to “ask
questions about a subject that will heighten fear, cause insomnia and
worry,
and break through the carefully constructed mental barriers that filter
the
regime’s propaganda and fear making exercise” (11). Although keeping
silent
might have been the right thing to do, I was frustrated that I was not
able to
get a glimpse of “real life” through the eyes of a Burmese. I guess the
government had successfully managed to oppress foreigners, too, by
keeping me
silent out of the fear that any questions would endanger the locals.
I had many
mixed feelings during the trip - I wanted to believe the oppression was
real.
After so many articles and testimonies, it had to be. Yet, a stubborn
part of
me protested “seeing is believing.” Through my own eyes, it was easy to
believe
that the oppression was not there. I was upset that I had been almost
falsely
“set up” by SAS to see oppression due to all the military regime hype
and
warnings that was fed to me prior to stepping into the country. Perhaps
my
“LOLA” skills needed sharpening and I needed to get off the tourist
track, which
was highly monitored by the government. But had I been ignorant of the
military
regime’s abusive acts towards the people, I would have never guessed
about the
hidden sadness within the country. I did not even notice the silencing
of the
people, which Skidmore mentions. My tour guide was indeed silent about
being anti
government if indeed that was her position, but she did not have “a
blank exterior persona: listless
eyes in
wooden bodies,” as Skidmore had seen (10). She constantly told jokes
and
laughed, reminding us the one thing to tell people back home about Myanmar is that it is a beautiful
country, which
was somewhat of a curious thing to say if Burma
was as oppressed as the media insists.
The
majority of my Burma
education was about the military regime, which did not even match up to
my
experience in the country. All I had seen was beautiful temples,
poverty and
beggars, which were common traits of the previous four countries I had
visited.
Even though I was in Burma
for a week, I feel like I know it less now than I did before. I had
arrived
confident that I would get some sense of the oppression, but instead I
left
feeling confused and discouraged. The only major oppression I
experienced was
mental oppression from all the preconceptions I had of Burma
that did
not appear to be true.
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