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Where
Jeans and a T-shirt Just Won’t Do
By Caroline Park
I’m walking along the streets of Kobe in the gray
drizzling rain. Japan
really is
a prosperous country. There’s order, there’s glam and glitz—the fashion
street
I just passed by was glamorous and luring—and people walk with focus
and
purpose. Yesterday and today for a while, instead of focusing on the
sights and
buildings around me, I tried looking at the people. I tried to look at
the
faces of the people passing by, to penetrate their thoughts even though
glances
were brief. I imagine that I saw the faces of content people. Most
people’s
faces were expressionless but I didn’t spot the gaunt, haunting look
that I saw
so many times in the streets of Guiyang, China
or in
certain parts of downtown LA. There’s tired looks, especially during
the
evening rush hour but overall, the young and old alike have the air of
secure
and sure people.
Strolling along
that one narrow fashion street was dizzying. Everything and anything
you can
want and imagine exists there. High rolling clothes of every kind,
various accessories,
on my left I pass by lingerie, on my right a huge glass cabinet
contains every
type of sunglasses imaginable. Shoe stores are in abundance with men
and
women’s shoes of all types of colors, styles, and sizes and they beckon
the
passerbyers to stop their footsteps and browse. Looking too much at all
these
items in the glittering store lights hurts my head and I have to turn
around.
So I decide to take the route less treaded on into an emptier side
street where
shops are less fancy and more humble. These shops are smaller but feel
less
intimidating than the ones I had just passed by. No matter where I go
or to which
country, I notice these people whose lives are perhaps invested in
these little
shops. Numerous lives tangled in the fate of the little shops reminds
me of how
hard people work to lead decent lives and provide better opportunities
for
their children and grandchildren.
I feel so
underdressed and shabby next to the fashionable girls with high boots,
fancy
tops, and elaborate hairstyles. And I definitely
feel like a tourist with my Northface strapped around my waist. I feel
myself
trying very hard to be an observer but I don’t think I’m used to it.
I’m more
used to being the people I see, walking somewhere without a glance
around me,
my only purpose being where I need to go.
It
being my first day here, I have to agree with Dorinne Kondo as she
articulates in her chapter "The Eye/I" of Crafting Selves that
“first journal entries highlight sensory impressions,
superficial descriptions, and feelings of the strangeness and mystery
of a
place” (7). Those are exactly what I am
most aware of so far. Seeing with
different eyes is harder than I imagined. Not too sure about what I’m supposed to see and what
differently but here I am, standing in the middle of the streets,
utterly alone
and in the rain, lost but amused at my situation, so maybe that’s
progress.
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