Culture Shock in My Own
Country
Japan
By Tatsuru Kimura

It is the
first
time for me to go back
to Japan
in the last two years. I was quite
excited to eat Japanese food, speak Japanese and wander around the
downtown of Kobe. However, I felt that I did not match the town
of Kobe,
although
I am Japanese.
The first
thing
I felt discomfort about
is the crowded train. The distance
between persons seems too short for me, although only a few years ago I
used to
go school by a more-crowded train, in which it was really hard to
breathe and
everybody was irritated. The somewhat
sweet smell around Samnomiya Station also made me a little bit
uncomfortable. Nobody said “sorry” when
they bumped into a
stranger. I think I must look different
from people in my generation because nobody distributed leaflets to
me other
than a person from the Middle East. I began to doubt whether I was really in Japan.
In her book
about her fieldwork in Japan, Crafting
Selves, Dorinne K. Kondo (1990)
says that she felt her identity as American collapse when she found
herself
completely adapted to Japanese society. I
think the same kind of incident was happening to me.
I gradually lost a bit of my identity as
Japanese during my two years in United
States, but I realized the change when I came back
to Japan. However, my change was pretty small compared
to Kondo’s change. By the next day, I
could behave as an “ordinary Japanese” and did not feel out of place
any more.
This
“culture
shock” gave me a
chance to think about identity. Confusion
of identity may easily occur. In my
case, it was easy to reconfirm my identity as Japanese. I wondered
about people
who have ambiguous identity. One’s
nationality does not always fit one’s identity. I
have not thought deeply about such issues. It
might be because I was born in a
relatively homogeneous country.
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